And my period hasn’t started yet…

But something else began. And also as unexpectedly, as my “irregular” periods usually begin. The calendar really says that for several years now my cycle has returned to normal, but now it wasn’t there. Now everything will be different. It’s like New Year, but in reverse. And people will get used and adapt, and perhaps even populate Mars. But even there they will definitely quarrel with each other. A new level of chaos and uncertainty is when you think: “I wonder what the dollar exchange rate is now?”, and then you remember that “what the f*ck is the difference?”
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Anxious anticipation of the uncertain

I have been very anxious for most of today. It all started in the morning and ended in the evening. Now I’m still a little anxious, but not like before. Now I’ve become smarter, I immediately understand what’s the matter – menstruation is coming soon. At the end of the month before my period, I become too vulnerable, anxious and whiny. This is already a system, so I have to admit, premenstrual syndrome exists. Even my boyfriend is already used to it, if I start behaving slightly inappropriately, then of course, you won’t get off so easily. More serious measures are needed than just saying “yes, it’s still good, why are you worried about nonsense ?!”
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How to enjoy life better

Well, if wealth does not for us, then at least we can organize happiness for ourselves. I’ve been doing this quite well for 10 years since I quite everything to find myself: I got enough sleep, ate well, walked a lot and even learned how to bake bread and knit. But I have something to strive for. After a holiday in Egypt, I “rebooted” and began to introduce new habits into my life that help me feel happier every day: Continue reading

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How to make money

I do not know. But I’ve always wanted to know. I remember how 10 years ago I read the book “Rich Dad Poor Dad” and realized that everything is very simple: you need to invest something, then buy real estate for cheap price, sell for higher, and then … in general, it turned out that you really just need to talk about how to become rich and teach people about it. And also make your own boardgame, which will also teach everyone to get rich, and sell it on their courses on wealth. And write a book with a loud title “Rich Dad Poor Dad” and sell it too. Well, you get the logic.
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Holiday lovestory as introvert

Sun, sea, beach, sand. The long-awaited freedom begins to be felt already at the airport. What is freedom? This is flight, delicious food, fun adventures, love. And when you go on vacation “with your suitcase”, “with your samovar” or just with your husband, who is of course the best, but you’ve been together for 16 years and should have gotten tired of each other by now; but by a strange chance you didn’t get tired, I think because some men really get prettier with age, at least mine … – in this case, the holiday lovestory turns into a funny story, which I will tell you now.
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Stack for the day

Woke up, exercise, a glass of yogurt and three Yubileyniy cookies. This was enough to shoot three videos. And then I deflated like a balloon on the fifth day after my birthday. The tension in my throat from vigorous ranting is adjacent to the tension in my shoulders and neck, as if from above I was pressed not by a column of atmospheric air, but by a monolithic slab with a pile of unsolved problems. Shake my head left and right, shake my shoulders, exorcise the depressant demons. Phew, it got easier.

And life, it seems to be nothing bad. It’s just that for every day only a stack of chips is allotted, which you can spend as you like, but as soon as you put the last chip on the field with the name “blog writing” – that’s it, dear, done writing and be healthy, go for a walk, eat there, watch movie. You won’t get more use from you, only if you don’t pick up a couple of chips on the street, suddenly someone dropped it or you get supplies from the stash from the closet. It seemed like there is a whole day, but I have less and less chips. Continue reading

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Do not rush to prove to others

They don’t have to understand you. Maybe they just can’t. Or not interested, do not want to. And what difference does it make, the main thing is that I don’t need it. Although it seems that it is simply necessary to be understood. But in fact, this is incidental, not core. And even if they understand, it will suddenly seem so, and if you dig deeper, it may turn out that they understood, but not at all.

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Everything fell into place

Happy to live until the moment when you understand what you just felt before. It is important to see reality. And once again say: “He was right!”, Well, or “She was right” (it doesn’t matter). In my case, Igroglaz turned out to be right, who has already said a hundred thousand times that it makes no sense to set digital goals. And I kept going on and on, year after year. And for the first time I decided to try to just do something, not expecting to get x dollars or y views as a result. Continue reading

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Results of 2021 and goals for 2022

Last year, I made a post reviewing my progress and setting goals for the future. Let’s smile sadly at our achievements for the year. Now I seem to understand more clearly how I need to set goals so that at the end of the year I don’t sit with lists like this:

Goals for 2021 and beyond:

  • to make a merch (that’s right now!);
  • update thumbs presets (fonts);
  • finish learning a book on python (output agricultural data to the site, create an apk, make your own mask on social media);
  • translate posts into English (Shtukensia website);
  • finish book “Virus Jump”;
  • earn $ 1,500 / month on YouTube.
  • obtain Israeli citizenship (repatriation);
  • a book or course about baking;
  • choose a place for my home;
  • buy land;
  • build a house.

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I can’t perform my strengths

Realize your strengths.
The book was, to some extent, an attempt to realize my strengths.
How to implement them on video?

Strengths list:

  • wit;
  • rhetoric (already being implemented at Shtukentiya);
  • interested in unusual things, new features: AI, clothes in 3D, technological innovations;
  • artistic ability – I write beautifully, I can draw diagrams;
  • chatting with people – I like chatting; since this is not necessarily communication, you can leave at any second;
  • beauty – makeup, show the figure, legs. There are practically no full-length shots;
  • clothes;
  • tediousness;
    • to do something for a long time; I like it when something comes out of it;
    • I can read many books and present the essence in 3 pages;
    • scopus – scientific articles about YouTube;
    • write scripts on an interesting topic;
  • analytical skills – charts, methods, statistics (there is already a little on the SB);
    to read from a prompter – not to think what to say; good vision;
  • soft voice ASMR – like the post-sound, soothes; add sound effects to the post;
  • provocative content, trolling. Saying ambiguous things to which everyone emotionally reacts;
  • show not just a tedious detailed factual analysis of the topic, but to give your “artist’s view”, “first impression”, hoaxes, conjectures, amazing.
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2020 targets: outcomes and failures

Well, in general, it’s time to take make summary, as I’m too tired to hurry somewhere else and run. It’s the end of the year, or is it just burnout… For three months I did a VidCourse on YouTube, which ate all the time and made me very happy.

And somehow in between times I wrote a book, which I will tell you about a little later, as it comes out.

Here are all the goals that at the time of writing the last post have not yet been completed – let’s cross out or write progress:

  • to finish a book on python – 40%;
  • create a pharmacy – 0%;
  • bring agricultural data to the site – 0%;
  • finish a book on YouTube;
  • translate posts into English (Shtukentia website) – 20%;
  • make merchandise – 0%;
  • make your own mask on Instagram – 0%;
  • 1000 followers on instagram 2 – 50%;
  • 5000 on my Instagram – 60%;
  • update all YouTube channels – 60%;
  • three complete pieces on the piano.

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2020 goals

I don’t remember that I set specific goals for the year last year. I had some intermediate tasks that I should start with analyzing. For past periods, I planned:

  • finish a book about YouTube;
  • income> 5 $ / month from each site alchnost.com, shtukensia.com, 9go.ru;
  • for each YouTube channel post a video at least once a month;
  • get new driver’s license;
  • collect todo lists and ideas, add them to a file;
  • breadcrumbs on the site;
  • put up paintings for sale;
  • write weekly posts to sites.

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What should I do next?

Some thoughtfulness visited me. Should I do something like “my course” as everyone else? To write a book? Sell ​​knowledge and experience? Make a merch? Buy an ad for my channel? And a bunch of some stupid thoughts like “how could I take all my subscribers with a magic wand and turn them into banknotes” … Do you want to become a dollar? A hundred bucks? Everyone will want you, will desire you and lust for you. They will not refuse you anymore, they will gladly let you into any house, and someone will even hang you in a frame. Well, everything is better than the ordinary life of the average lack of homeiness.

What? No? Still want to be human? Okay. So be it. Stay people. I’m even thinking of closing Patreon, because in a month I realized that there’s as much hemorrhoids from him as from any “one more project” that I still have no time to do. Four good people supported me! It was as cool as ever! But now two have already unsubscribed. And it’s even somehow uncomfortable for the rest that there are only two of them. It seems to me that it will be psychologically difficult for them to unsubscribe, because there are so few of them. In general, the fewer participants somewhere, the more noticeable their actions. In general, I just want to say that I will not think about you even badly if you just unsubscribe. Truth 🙂

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Envy, projection, ranking

It is very important to learn to distinguish three frequent types of people’s reactions in communication – envy, projection and power struggle. In real life they are somewhat similar: a person can label you with the words “fool” or “dumb”, you may get a bucket of comparisons with something that is considered offensive in the public mind, the phrases “you do not understand anything”, “you still small ‘,’ you are outdated ‘and many others. Continue reading

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